My ALS Story
My
name is Cory Seth Poling. My friends and family call me Seth. I'm 35 years old,
born and raised in Buckhannon, WV. I moved to Morgantown, WV 10 years ago. I
often say that moving to Morgantown was the best decision of my life, because
it eventually led me to meeting the love of my life. I met my wife, Erika, 10
years ago through mutual friends. After numerous attempts to "court"
Erika, she couldn't resist my charming personality and dazzling looks and
agreed to go on a date with me! But in all seriousness, Erika and I began
dating at the beginning of 2014.
We were engaged after 15 months of dating and married on August 20, 2016. We
have 2 sons, Liam Seth Poling and Bayler Michael Poling. Liam is 3.5 years old
and Bayler is 2.5 years old. We have a family dog named Brier. We live the
typical life of a younger 30s married couple with 2 children under 4 years old,
despite the fact that I have a terminal illness. I have ALS, more commonly
known as Lou Gehrig disease. I've had symptoms of ALS for 7.5 years and I was
officially diagnosed with ALS in June 2017.
ALS, or amyotrophic lateral sclerosis, is a progressive neurodegenerative
disease that affects nerve cells in the brain and the spinal cord. The
progressive degeneration of the motor neurons in ALS eventually leads to their
demise. When the motor neurons die, the ability of the brain to initiate and
control muscle movement is lost. With voluntary muscle action progressively
affected, people may lose the ability to speak, eat, move and breathe. ALS
typically strikes people between 40-70 years old. 90-95% of ALS cases are
sporadic, while the remaining 5-10% of cases are familial or genetic. Around
16,000 Americans currently suffer from ALS. The average life expectancy is 2-5
years. Currently there is not a cure and only 2 FDA approved medications that
can try to extend life expectancy by a few short months.
ALS affects everyone differently, so the diagnosis process is often long drawn
out. For me, I first noticed a small muscle twitch in my right shoulder while
on a cruise in 2014. I brushed it off and chalked it up as a possible symptom
of an old injury. After 6 months of continuous twitching and some pain in my
shoulder, I decided to see an Orthopedic Surgeon. The orthopedic surgeon
scheduled an MRI which showed a torn rotator cuff and labrum. The surgeon
suggested surgery, but advised that I should see a Neurologist prior to surgery
to have the twitching looked at further.
I went to my first Neurologist appointment at Ruby Memorial hospital in May
2015, without a care in the world. I had no idea that mine and my family's
lives were about to be changed forever. The Neurologist examined me and
determined that I was now twitching in my left tricep, tongue and right
shoulder. He showed a general concern, but didn't elaborate. He suggested that
I have an EMG performed to better understand why I was twitching. Immediately
after the EMG; the Neurologist said he could not say with 100% clarity, but he
feared that I showed the early signs and symptoms of ALS. Erika and I were
floored. I had only heard of Lou Gehrig the baseball player and the Ice Bucket
Challenge from the year before.
We left the appointment in total disbelief and decided to seek a second
opinion. I scheduled an appointment with an ALS specialist at Cleveland Clinic
during November 2015. I had a horrible experience and left that appointment
with more questions than answers. We received zero clarification as to if I
truly had ALS or not. The only way to diagnose ALS is through symptom
diagnostics, there is not a single test that says with 100% clarification yes
or no. I shared a few symptoms of ALS, but not enough to say definitively. I
basically refused to believe I had ALS and carried on with my life for the next
1.5 years.
Over the next 1.5 years, I started to notice that my speech would slur when I
was tired. My family suggested that I seek another opinion. I scheduled an
appointment with a leading ALS specialist at Johns Hopkins in June 2017. After
being examined by a specialist, he confirmed our worst fears that I in fact had
ALS. He suggested that I begin taking a medication that was approved by the FDA
in 1994 that slows the disease progression by a few months. At that time, it
was the only medication on the market. Soon after my diagnosis, the FDA
approved the first ALS medication in 23 years. After 6 months of fighting with
my insurance company, I was finally approved to begin the IV infusion
medication.
Unfortunately, both ALS medications only claim to add months onto your overall
life expectancy. It's like putting a bandaid on the Titanic and hoping for the
best. In May 2018, I participated in a clinical drug trial through Johns
Hopkins. I did not see any benefit from that drug trial. My overall health has
declined at a slower rate than most ALS patients, but progression is
inevitable. My balance worsened and I took several bad falls. One fall resulted
in a broken wrist. The other fall resulted in two ambulance rides to two
separate hospitals because of a possible brain bleed. I was forced to choose
safety over mobility and started to use my power wheelchair.
At the same time I had to stop working. I hadn't driven by myself for a year
plus. My voice was only audible to my wife. My breathing got weaker and I
started to use a Bipap during the night while I slept. I used a Bipap for a
year and a half. During that time I started to get choked frequently as I
couldn't cough and expel my secretions. I tried to use a Cough Assist machine,
but it was to foreign to me and I couldn't relax enough to benefit from
using it.
I was struggling with coughing and my two boys were bringing home the typical
daycare germs. A slight cold for my family, meant several weeks of
coughing choking episodes that always resulted in panic attacks. As if things
couldn't get worse, COVID-19 reared its ugly head and everything changed
overnight. I already lived an isolated life, but we went into complete
isolation for the next 4 months. No caregivers. No friends or family visits.
The world was pure pandemonium. This was the new normal for the foreseeable
future.
As the pandemic began to ease in the Spring of 2021, my wife and I had a
major life decision to make. Would I take the next step in my ALS journey, in
many ways the final decision of this journey, and choose to extend my
life by having a tracheotomy. Only 10% of PALS (Patients with ALS) choose to
have this procedure. This decision comes with many challenges. A PALS with a
trachea requires 24/7 care, which can be extremely expensive and can't be
easily reversed. My wife and I decided that my current status of choking,
panic attacks and a global pandemic wasn't sustainable. I was one bad
choking episode away from disaster.
On August 19, 2021, I had a tracheotomy. I spent 1 day in the
hospital and then I was released into my wife's care. Thank God that my wife
was a CCU nurse in addition to being a Nurse Practitioner. The next 8-10 weeks
were a living Hell. I was struggling to adjust to the trachea. My secretions
were out of control. My wife was exhausted trying to care for me and my boys,
all while working full time. I was a physical and emotional mess. I was
100% reliant on my eye gaze communication device. I could no longer smell. I
had to learn even more patience than I ever thought possible.
ALS is so evil. It steals everything from the PALS and their families. Every
day is a struggle, but I am so thankful that my family and I made this
life extending decision. I'm not sure what the future holds, but with the
recently signed bill ACT for ALS, I have more hope and promise than ever
before. The burden of ALS is not only physical/mental, but financial. I see a
physical therapist weekly to attempt to stay proactive as my disease
progresses.
I refuse to give up or quit fighting. I try to stay upbeat and positive for
myself and my family. Every day truly is a gift from God. I enjoyed working,
watching my boys grow, spending time with friends and family, sports, hunting,
outdoors and my wife. My wife has been by my side through all of this and
hasn't skipped a beat. She is my hands, legs and voice. She works full time,
raises 2 boys (some would say 3 boys counting me), takes care of our dog, is my
nurse and does it day in and day out with a smile on her beautiful face! We
live an unconventional life, but it's our life. We refuse to let ALS define our
lives!
Lots of Love and Prayers for you brother.
ReplyDeleteMy mom is also suffering from this deadly desease ðŸ˜ðŸ˜